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finally managed to eat some cucumber slices from my salad

wish i had someone here irl rn to just. hug.

is now a good reason to skip class because i might need to just. cry.

hhhhhhhh idk what to doooooo

like i just wannya date her :pleadingcat: but she probably doesn’t wannya date me im guessing…

why am i so gay…………………..

this song isn’t even two minutes

too short :(

aaaa just keep thinking about her…….

it would be rlly nice to like. date…….

my chest hurts slightly.

too much panicking.

wait there's a new alec benjamin song that's been out for a few months???

apple music where was the notification???????

FUCKING BREATHE ROSALINA

literally just like. stop panicking (impossible)

if i just keep turning up the music then it's easier to pretend i dont see the notifications right

"fuck /pos" and "fuck /neg"

can fuck also be an emotion

need status posts that are just like. emotions. and then it'd just be panic panic panic panic panic panic panic panic panic

in a state of panic rn

so happy i have my apple watch now so i can see my heart rate rn lol

girl that literally says "hiiii" out loud when she types it

i think my brain is enjoying these sounds maybe

(really vague but i dont care) god the idea that this lyric is about him is so fucking funny

thinking about this stuff is so weird. never thought i'd be comfy with [that] after her. but maybe i am open to the idea slightly. possibly.

so scared that she probably doesn't like me

mmmm how is she so cute............

fuck i just realized i don’t get to see her again until monday :(((

mmmmm saige is in love…

i might be slightly gay. possibly. just a little bit. like just slightly a faggot perhaps.

aaaaa think i’m in love…

think i feel a lot calmer now after getting to talk about when “soon” is

still worried it’ll go terribly though >.<

god i wish i had my apple watch rn, i need to see my heart rate

pro tip don't think too much or else you like worry and then more worry because you're worrying and then even more worry and more worrying and worry and worry and worrying and aaa

have to always ruin everything

hhhhhhhh

why am i like this

i don’t know when soon is but i don’t want to ask >.<

panicking rn

aaa scared >.<

every time i have to touch this database, i hate myself even more for how terrible the rust layer is written (strings get wrapped with quotes because something something rust types and i just, convert to json and back to deal with it)

girl that quietly goes "hiii" when she's being stared at

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa keep thinking about yesterday and, :3

hhhhh feel like she probably hates me after all this

miss her :(

everything hurts so much

maybe that’s what i’ll do today

kinda wannya add private posts here through indieauth.

just realized she called me silly hehe

very weird dream >.<

kagi.com "how do i know if a girl likes me"

meow hi :3

feel so terrible rn. might be sick

there's no way she likes me right?? it's definitely just platonic. friendly. :3

like, no one could ever actually like me rightttttt

there’s no way she likes me though right

melting,,,,,,,,