about to cry (from happiness) just thinking about getting to live with my girlfriend some day... would be so cute...

kinda needy rn tbh

slight feeling of just. wanting to cry rn.

what if i just like. held her hand rn. that'd be so silly.

eepy and gay rn

she said maybe we could build a nas (network-attached storage) together someday :pleadingcat:

and then i thought of nascar (nea and saige car) for some reason…

NAS NAS: Nea and Saige Network-attached storage

oh, you're straight? that's so uh. uhhhhhh. homophobic. yeah that's so homophobic of you

i love how protected and safe i feel around my girlfriend tbh. or just like. having her jacket and squishmallows to hug makes me feel really safe too tbh. i love her so fucking much :pleadingcat:

reading a hacker news thread and like. the idea that developers who can only write react and not html is so insane to me. like. i’m sure they exist. but like, ???

gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :3 (me)

eepy puppy

my girlfriend and i are currently figuring out the insanity that is making a triangle with css

my girlfriend just said sqlite isn't real sql 😭

anyways postgres and stuff is fake. sqlite is the only real sql and is the only sql anyone ever needs

it’s 75f in here and i am freezing to death :deadAnya:

fuck it. i’ve been so fucking good for like, a really long time. and then when i have to spend a week with my shitty parents i want to die.

this is the most depressed i’ve been in a longggggg time

thinking now like. one time she spent forever making a blurred background thing. and like, ok the app does literally nothing still… why are you investing so much time in this??

reading a hacker news thread and there’s stuff about bandcamp and that just reminds me like. what happened to that bandcamp competitor my terrible ex was contracted for lol

the past week has been a great reminder of why i hate being with my parents.

constant misgendering. deadnaming. always upset with me for something.

regret.

sometimes i wonder like. if she understands just how much i love her :pleadingcat:

cause it’s like. really difficult to express in words i feel like >.< and also im scared that im too needy :(

she’s so amazing though :pleadingcat:

extremely upset with myself because my girlfriend and i were going to call tonight and i told myself i would not fall asleep before then

i fell asleep :(((((((((

saw a selfie of myself but for like 1/2 of a second i thought it was my girlfriend cause im wearing her jacket in it lol

i just wannya hold her hand rn tbh :pleadingcat: would be so cute and comfy :3

sometimes i just like. sit and think for a bit. and realize like. i somehow have the sweetest, most amazing girlfriend ever. and i have like, no idea how. but she makes me so fucking happy and i feel so comforted with her…

i actually just love her so fucking much :pleadingcat:

mmm, am glad i have so many of her squishmallows. they make the distance like. maybe slightly easier.

still really difficult though :((( i miss her so much

at least i do also have her jacket,,,

i won :3

my girlfriend got me to start playing confusing pokemon game and idk what im doing but its kinda fun ig :3

just love her so much tbh :pleadingcat:

how do i express to my girlfriend how thankful i am for how fucking amazing she's been the past few days

like. it's been really difficult for me being so far away from home and not being able to hug her and stuff >.< but every night we've gotten to call for at least a bit and aaaaaa :pleadingcat:

i just want to be acknowledged tbh

i miss my nea so much rn :(

think it's that time of day where i just. lay in bed. and try not to cry.

genuinely just. annoyed rn

sad cause my girlfriend isn't giving me attention rn and like that's all i want.....

completely forgot that directv (satellite) has cheat codes that you can just, type into the search menu, do a keyword search, and hope it works.

how is webcage so fucking good omg

i wish ubiquiti made a travel router 😭

there was the amplifi teleport hardware a long time ago. but that didn’t work with unifi + it’s been dead for so long :(

keep looking at the selfie my girlfriend and i took at the airport this morning before saying goodbye and like, god she’s so fucking cute. and i also look kinda ok in the picture :3

i’m so sleepy now

miss my girlfriend already :(

won’t see her again for a week minimum. probably december 2nd at the earliest :((

sometimes i think about my ex (bad ex) and it’s just like. omfg she’s such an idiot, also how did i ever date her and also i hate her so much for what she did to me…

one time with some friends i said she should stop existing and my girlfriend said “usually id say that’s an over exaggeration but in this case it’s warranted” or something (don’t remember exactly what she said)

mmmm i love my girlfriend so much,,,, she’s so sweet and kind and cute and i just feel so safe with her tbh

new hobby is fucking up the names of java things

started calling quarkus "quack quack" and whatever armenia is "armadillo"

also the other day i accidentally said squeal-ite instead of sequel-ite

i'm so eepy

probably will do it anyways tbh

kinda want to wall mount the u7 pro in my apartment but the radiation patterns are making me feel like that'll not work out great for using my phone in bed...

i have the cutest girlfriend ever.......

still can't believe i get to be her girlfriend,,,,,,,,,,,

i'm so silly rn :3

god i love wearing my girlfriend's jacket so much, it's so fucking soft and cozy and aaaa just don't want to take it off ever.....

might cry

does anyone even care about me,,,

feeling a bit dead rn tbh

tbh this job is like really boring. more people should come so i actually have to like, check people in. instead of just sitting here looking around an empty room.

extremely eepy and gay right now

why am i so attached to hugging my girlfriend’s jackets……

really hope this doesn't fuck things up tbh >.<

i know she struggles a bit with socializing a lot, and i think she's probably kinda had a hard time adjusting to uni and like, being around people a lot? not sure, kinda just guessing...

feel like i annoy my girlfriend a bit tbh but like, i love her too much,,,,,,,

how is it possible for a girl to be as amazing as she is :pleadingcat:

eepy and gay

mmm i love my girlfriend’s jackets so much. so cozy to wear and hug and hold,,,,,

my girlfriend said she's going to go get me a surprise and i am convinced it is spaghetti

i blush so much whenever my girlfriend texts me “ily” aaa

i miss my girlfriend so much,,,,,,,

being a puppy is so cool………

i love my girlfriend so much,,,,,,,

she's actually so amazing :pleadingcat:

every time i hear this song it just confuses me in a way and i don’t understand why https://music.apple.com/us/album/astrid/1539844811?i=1539844814

playing mario party and being sad rn

i miss her :(

knowing that she reads my website sometimes makes me happy tbh :3 (hi nea :3)

god i hate myself so much right now

why am i never good enough? why does nothing ever fucking work out for me?

hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself

why couldn’t i just be smart enough

i hate myself :(

hate this brain :((

been hugging my girlfriend's plushie so much tonight, seems to be the only way i can calm down right now...

maybe i should drop out

too much sadness now

i think it would be very cool if at&t just gave me a /48 or something pls

i fucking hate at&t for only giving me a /60 ipv6 thingy. it's so annoying to work with in unifi :(

really want to setup a pds (idk if i'd do it on my pi or my server at my parents'...) and throw like an alt on it. just scared to do it on my main because afaik you can't migrate back to a bluesky-hosted pds and i'd probably fuck it up...

maybe i'd use like @puppygirlin.space or @puppygirl.ink

good night, it is eepy saige time i think

it should be possible for me to just have like 5 different names and everyone use them tbh that’d be so cute

4 hours of sleep is not enough for this puppy i think

i'm so eepy...

ideas are coming together :3

really hope she gives me a hug tbh >.< all i can think about right now :(

guess today is going to be one of those that i just don’t stop spiraling

feel close to being sick almost >.< just so much trauma coming back now

i’ve started wearing my airpods a lot at times that i previously wouldn’t have. like when running errands or walking alone. having a bit of background music is just rlly nice tbh

trying to figure out what to get my girlfriend for christmas without just asking her what she wants for christmas

i think i have some ok ideas so far

i should work on funny roblox game idea maybe

it’d be so cool if i had actually interesting things to post here. but i don’t.

instead, i just post gay thoughts.

totally not going down the “omg that name would be so cute” and then going through 20 different names pipeline… again…

alexis would be a cute name tbh

saige try not to get sad when her girlfriend doesn't reply to "ily" challenge (i know she does, and i also know she gets easily distracted sometimes and doesn't have discord notifications on. but my brain is still dumb and panics >.<)

i wish i could be good at splatoon :(

snipewriter 5h is the best charger ever. other than maybe z+f splat charger or e-liter 4k or z+f splatterscope.