notes

have this stuck in my head now https://music.apple.com/us/album/tensionnn/1732112388?i=1732112389

not complaining though :3

wtf

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just like. idk. this night is like. idk. can’t find the words rn

feel kinda terrible rn tbh but i shouldn’t :deadAnya:

gay (i am bored)

her jacket smells nice.......

omg i get to hug her jacket because she forgot it.....

this stupid armrest should stop existing (it is in my way and makes it uncomfy)

blushing so much rn hehe

blehhhhhh i dont wannya learn about java rn i wannya listen to the funny song that is stuck in my head for some reason (specifically the same like 10 seconds because it's sampling a song i rlly like...... or i could listen to the actual song thats being sampled....... idk i just wannya listen to music rn tbh)

discord users will literally pay for nitro just to make their profile completely unreadable (i love white text on white background)

painting my nails fucking sucks (it gives me too much time to think)

god i had been doing so fucking good for a while and then today i have just been the most emotional mess ever lol

my brain is very good at setting myself up for the maximum amount of pain if worst case scenarios happen huh

somehow forgot my apartment complex is doing fucking radon testing because of course

tbh it kinda makes me sad a bit to think about like, i have her in my discord bio and stuff. but i'm not in hers. but idk, it's whatever... probably shouldn't be sad about that but i kinda am >.<

hhhhhh god i am such a mess

well now i just want to cry

mmmmm she is just the cutest girl ever and i don’t understand how…………………

i am so gay……

cincinnati children’s is trying to make my life terrible rn huh

i love fucking with internal apis and proxying them through my own server to fix my annoyances with this app (it showed the room incorrectly because the api data was wrong)

aaa i love her so fucking much.......

i love being her puppy………..

the tower dining experience is there not being a single clean fork in the entire place

wait what did she mean i’m relatively normal??

her music tastes are SO FUCKING GOOD OMG

hhhh, that was a nice day. i hope we get to do something like that again someday...

i love her so much...

can't wait to spend the day with her tomorrow :3

melting thinking about my girlfriend,,,

hm i have 3 days worth of mathober to post now oopsie

i miss nea so fucking much already :(

aaaaaa i already miss her :(((

i do not know what my brain is doing

why didn’t i try harder? why didn’t i apply to honors? why didn’t i just bother to submit it despite not having any academic work because my high school fucking sucked?

spiraling again

kinda just want to like. cry a bit. hhh

reminded again that i’m just an idiot.

confusion,,,

how is she so cute………………………….

holding hands,,,,,,,,

god i am such a faggot

don’t understand how she’s so fucking cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

god i am so fucking in love with her

really wish i could fall asleep in bed with her rn tbh

my girlfriend is so cool....

oh fuck i need to post mathober day 8

i miss my wife

miss the nea smell....

tempted to move more stuff for my website to the db so she can fuck with it too hehe

is being a faggot a disorder

can i list that as a disorder here

fuck dns