been hugging my girlfriend's plushie so much tonight, seems to be the only way i can calm down right now...

maybe i should drop out

too much sadness now

i think it would be very cool if at&t just gave me a /48 or something pls

i fucking hate at&t for only giving me a /60 ipv6 thingy. it's so annoying to work with in unifi :(

really want to setup a pds (idk if i'd do it on my pi or my server at my parents'...) and throw like an alt on it. just scared to do it on my main because afaik you can't migrate back to a bluesky-hosted pds and i'd probably fuck it up...

maybe i'd use like @puppygirlin.space or @puppygirl.ink

good night, it is eepy saige time i think

it should be possible for me to just have like 5 different names and everyone use them tbh that’d be so cute

4 hours of sleep is not enough for this puppy i think

i'm so eepy...

ideas are coming together :3

really hope she gives me a hug tbh >.< all i can think about right now :(

guess today is going to be one of those that i just don’t stop spiraling

feel close to being sick almost >.< just so much trauma coming back now

i’ve started wearing my airpods a lot at times that i previously wouldn’t have. like when running errands or walking alone. having a bit of background music is just rlly nice tbh

trying to figure out what to get my girlfriend for christmas without just asking her what she wants for christmas

i think i have some ok ideas so far

i should work on funny roblox game idea maybe

it’d be so cool if i had actually interesting things to post here. but i don’t.

instead, i just post gay thoughts.

totally not going down the “omg that name would be so cute” and then going through 20 different names pipeline… again…

alexis would be a cute name tbh

saige try not to get sad when her girlfriend doesn't reply to "ily" challenge (i know she does, and i also know she gets easily distracted sometimes and doesn't have discord notifications on. but my brain is still dumb and panics >.<)

i wish i could be good at splatoon :(

snipewriter 5h is the best charger ever. other than maybe z+f splat charger or e-liter 4k or z+f splatterscope.

have the air conditioning on so my apartment is cold and i can wear her jacket :3

somehow people are finding me through microsoft teams and i dont understand how? i dont remember ever linking it on a microsoft profile thing, and im pretty sure i've never (directly) associated it with my uni stuff? if you know i go by rosalina saige i guess you can find it... still confusing >.<

feeling happy right now ^^

wearing my girlfriend's jacket ^^

i really don't deserve a girlfriend as amazing as her tbh...

like, she's so smart and amazing and aaaaa :pleadingcat:

and im kinda like. not. :(

october is over in a couple hours. might just, not bother with finishing mathober i guess. am like two weeks behind on it anyways and i'm busy (i got an idea that i need to try in javafx)

extending this song to last an hour because it's rlly good https://m.nintendo.com/shared/en-US/US/tracks/eda5c3cd-559b-4ac9-b656-2f99138c2017

her other jacket is very cozy too tbh,,, not as soft though i think. also am freezing to death just sitting inside right now >.<

have a different jacket from her now 🥺

i hate myself so much sometimes

everything just reminds me of how i should’ve tried harder. could’ve been in honors maybe if i bothered to do the extra work to apply

just remembered a really weird dream i had last night. think it was about this jacket?? lol

still sad that ibm has like, basically killed weather underground :(

just remembered i literally told my girlfriend my social security number lmao

apparently siri will pronounce bluesky as "blue skeee"

i'm so happy there's the nintendo music app now...

might actually fucking cry 😭

need a hug maybe >.< don’t feel good for some reason,,,,,,

they should like, make eyelids better at blocking light. like, how am i supposed to sleep in class when i can still see the light :(

aaaaa i just wannya wear this jacket all day tbh

her jacket is so fucking cozy and soft and it feels so nice and i almost want to cry a bit now >.< (idk why)

i am so eepy

think 10:30am classes are too early. next semester i need to do like 3pm at the earliest

i have this jank as fuck proxy running on my raspberry pi to proxy requests to m.uits.iu.edu, and i have a self signed certificate installed on my phone lol

it’s great though, i log every request the app makes and change some of them for funnies :3

wearing her jacket right now and i do not want to take this off ever 😭

it’s so fucking soft and comfy and omg i’m wearing her jacket,,,

just found a ubiquiti forum post i made when i was 12 lmaoooo

hhhhhhhhhh

how is she so amazing,,,,,,,,,,,

love her so fucking much but i am definitely not good enough to date her >.<

she called me puppy :pleadingcat:

hhhhh i hate myself

why am i like this

why does nothing ever go right...

god i love hugging her jacket so fucking much,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

omg she let me keep her jacket,,,,,

i love my girlfriend so much,,,,

she's so amazing,,,

guessing my way through java for a class right now and i just made the best javafx theme picker ever

girlfriend just asked if i’ve ate anything on my salad and when i said like three tomatoes and a cucumber she just said “ok” and walked away like she had an idea 😭

whenever i’m waiting for my girlfriend i always do this thing where i sit facing away from the door so whenever she comes out of the parking garage she can come up behind me and scare me lol

Arranging content close to the TrueDepth camera uses space more efficiently, and helps diminish the visual presence of the TrueDepth camera.

found this kinda funny, lol

scrolling through a table of nearly 4,000 coordinates on a specific day and checking random ones to figure out what day we went to a meeting for a club lol

explaining my cursed sqlite bindings for lune to my girlfriend right now and it's making me think of this https://xkcd.com/1172/

i'm like 10 days behind now on my mathober posts lol

i think it'd be really cool if fly.io just gave me infinite memory so my terrible python project doesn't out of memory (i have no idea how to debug this... like, my database isn't even that big. only like. 10,000 battles or so...)

god i love snipewriter 5h so much https://splashcat.ink/battles/groups/179/?share

my m3 pro macbook pro running minecraft with shaders better than my girlfriend’s rtx 2060 still just doesn’t make sense to me

like, the 2060 doesn’t feel like it was that long ago? literally feels like it came out only a couple years ago….

i now have puppygirl.ink and puppygirlin.space :3

how did she manage to do this

fuck i love my girlfriend so much,,,,,,

my girlfriend is forcing me to eat because i haven’t ate today

wtf it’s possible to hear coil whine on my macbook when running funny llm lol

just ufcking kill me now tbh

just gonnya sleep on the couch tonight i think. not even going to bother closing the minecraft instance that’s open

what’s the point :deadAnya:

having a conversation with my girlfriend’s plushie except it hasn’t said a word so it’s like really difficult for me to carry this entire conversation

god i so need a home lab

xcode time :3 (idk what i'm doing)

god webcage is so good

why do i love the beginning of this song so much, like those first couple seconds lol https://music.apple.com/us/album/head-in-the-clouds/1640739427?i=1640739800

looking at server racks again right now

update: everything. went from like 75% to 60% very fast and now im inside so i can have it plugged in.

running a local llm on my macbook while on battery, what could go wrong?

lets gooo only 5 minutes late to calculus (i considered skipping)

got to play minecraft with my girlfriend :3 was really nice

how difficult would it be to build like a routing thing between bus stops? (there’s 6 bus routes is that matters at all)

(i have a very silly idea)

wish i had her jacket :(

freezing to death rn

kinda want to just, go home. and lay in bed. and cry. and not wake up. idk.

kinda just feel like, crushed rn tbh.

want to cry rn tbh

:(

i love hugging her plushie so much :3

wish i had her jacket though :(

what is wrong with me rn? so confused. all i can think about is i was spiraling. but i don’t know why i started spiraling at all? like, wtf? and why won’t my brain stop thinking now about the fact i was spiraling? am i spiraling about spiraling? make it stop :((((((((((

playing hide and seek with my girlfriend right now but her hiding spot is literally anywhere on campus and i have no ideas

saige don't go down a fucking wikipedia rabbit hole during a quiz challenge

these pizza slices looked so much better under the heat lamp 😭

god words are so fucking scary

brain is already fucking up this conversation so badly (i cannot find the words at all... like they're in my brain,,,, but fingers won't type them.......)

aaaaaa i love her so fucking much,,,,

think i have an idea of what i could get her for her birthday hehe :3

i took a nap, was kinda nice. i hugged her plushie the entire time hehe

i’m so eepy

miss my sweetheart,,,,,

feeling of defeat rn tbh

i just miss her so much,,,

omg i know the song they’re playing in this panera cause nea played it last saturday lol