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why don't i have a tail?? i'm literally a puppy yet i don't have a tail to wag what the fuck is this?????

did solid ever go anywhere? genuinely no idea, every so often when i see a link to it the website looks the same as i remembered it, and i almost never see it get mentioned.

currently on a mission to be the cutest puppy ever

work on sunday is the best cause no body comes lol

i love being paid for 4 hours to do nothing but training :3

think it's time to just. go to bed and cry myself to sleep now.

they should make more webcage music tbh.

playdate intro is so beautiful tbh.

multivariate calculus is fucking weird like what the fuck does this tangent line mean

3d is too much for me. like actually. trying to graph it in desmos makes me a bit dizzy.

terrified rn

my girlfriend is making me watch star wars (have never really seen it tbh) and it’s so nice and cozy tbh, just laying on the couch with her watching it

i love her so so much :pleadingcat:

hhhhh why is my brain being all stupid rn and just. feeling empty and focusing on small things that never bother me but it is rn...

feeling awful rn.

i love my new job tbh

it's actually really fun, at least when working help desk. i'm surprisingly not awful at talking to customers, and when there's no customers i get to talk to my supervisor :3 and they all seem pretty cool :3

and when i have a shift in a lab i don't really have to talk to anyone that much, i just go and check printers and labs every so often, and apparently sometimes a supervisor will come and check on me?? so that's kinda cool ig :3

aaa marriage :pleadingcat:

sounds cute :pleadingcat: i’d get to marry her…

hhhh why must i ruin everything.

mm just thinking about how sweet my girlfriend is for letting me steal her jackets and squishmallows tbh :pleadingcat:

i love her so so so much…

i feel great rn tbh /gen

creating tech debt for future saige rn

it needs some problems to solve in its life (rewriting albums someday)

so fucking empty...

well that's a very unexpected moment of feeling empty.

sigh.

ik i do lots of like gay lesbian yearny posting but like

really am so glad i met nea :pleadingcat: she’s just so so so amazing, idk what i’d ever do without her :pleadingcat:

nobody knows i’m secretly a puppy

okay wow servicenow is slow

how the fuck do i do art

we're watching episode two of hide and seek across japan rn :3

yay i got my girlfriend hooked on jet lag i think :3

i wonder if i could get away with replacing the extremely boring and basic and inaccurate honeywell thermostat in my apartment with an ecobee

i hate trying to have friends. basically impossible ig

mmm i love my girlfriend so much tbh…

she’s actually just way too amazing :pleadingcat:

i’m puppy,,,

made my girlfriend watch jet lag: the game and she seems to enjoy it :3

happy new year !!

brb need to go make the 48934th misskey fork and call it uhhhhhhhhhhhhh stickerkey (i have stickers on my desk rn)

girls should be allowed to just sleepy and sleep and sleep sleep and sleep some more and lay in bed and sleep and eepy and nap and go to bed and hug jacket and sleep and hug squishmallow and sleep more and wake up and see it’s 3pm and go back to bed and sleep a bit more and sleepy sleep a lot

oops found another place on this website that still says catgirl

i hate this stupid fucking life so much

tbh does she even care about me?

mmm i love her so fucking much,,, wish i could hug her rn :pleadingcat:

also feel bad though that she has to deal with me being a mess though :(

it’s 7am and i’m still awake but i’m just laying in bed looking at pictures of my girlfriend

sometimes i miss fedi just a little bit. idk

feeling awful but at least im cute

i can’t take this fucking life

what’s the point if i’m never going to see her again. never be good enough for her.

i’m so useless.

what’s the point of anything if i can’t even give my girlfriend a hug for her birthday :(

nothing will ever be better than the picture of my girlfriend sitting on my kitchen floor looking in my fridge getting pop. and then the photo afterwards of her just sitting there drinking it.

apparently she doesn’t even follow me on github smh

sometimes i do think it’d be better if i killed myself.

like. yeah yeah bad idea or whatever.

but at least no one would have to deal with me anymore that way. idk. i wouldn’t be a burden anymore. and i don’t contribute much to society so,,,

want to throw my phone

next semester is going to fucking suck

feel so hopeless rn tbh.