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about to cry (from happiness) just thinking about getting to live with my girlfriend some day... would be so cute...

kinda needy rn tbh

slight feeling of just. wanting to cry rn.

what if i just like. held her hand rn. that'd be so silly.

eepy and gay rn

NAS NAS: Nea and Saige Network-attached storage

oh, you're straight? that's so uh. uhhhhhh. homophobic. yeah that's so homophobic of you

i love how protected and safe i feel around my girlfriend tbh. or just like. having her jacket and squishmallows to hug makes me feel really safe too tbh. i love her so fucking much :pleadingcat:

reading a hacker news thread and like. the idea that developers who can only write react and not html is so insane to me. like. i’m sure they exist. but like, ???

gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :3 (me)

eepy puppy

my girlfriend and i are currently figuring out the insanity that is making a triangle with css

my girlfriend just said sqlite isn't real sql 😭

anyways postgres and stuff is fake. sqlite is the only real sql and is the only sql anyone ever needs

it’s 75f in here and i am freezing to death :deadAnya:

fuck it. i’ve been so fucking good for like, a really long time. and then when i have to spend a week with my shitty parents i want to die.

this is the most depressed i’ve been in a longggggg time

reading a hacker news thread and there’s stuff about bandcamp and that just reminds me like. what happened to that bandcamp competitor my terrible ex was contracted for lol

the past week has been a great reminder of why i hate being with my parents.

constant misgendering. deadnaming. always upset with me for something.

regret.

sometimes i wonder like. if she understands just how much i love her :pleadingcat:

cause it’s like. really difficult to express in words i feel like >.< and also im scared that im too needy :(

she’s so amazing though :pleadingcat:

extremely upset with myself because my girlfriend and i were going to call tonight and i told myself i would not fall asleep before then

i fell asleep :(((((((((

saw a selfie of myself but for like 1/2 of a second i thought it was my girlfriend cause im wearing her jacket in it lol

i just wannya hold her hand rn tbh :pleadingcat: would be so cute and comfy :3

sometimes i just like. sit and think for a bit. and realize like. i somehow have the sweetest, most amazing girlfriend ever. and i have like, no idea how. but she makes me so fucking happy and i feel so comforted with her…

i actually just love her so fucking much :pleadingcat:

mmm, am glad i have so many of her squishmallows. they make the distance like. maybe slightly easier.

still really difficult though :((( i miss her so much

at least i do also have her jacket,,,

i won :3

my girlfriend got me to start playing confusing pokemon game and idk what im doing but its kinda fun ig :3

how do i express to my girlfriend how thankful i am for how fucking amazing she's been the past few days

like. it's been really difficult for me being so far away from home and not being able to hug her and stuff >.< but every night we've gotten to call for at least a bit and aaaaaa :pleadingcat:

i just want to be acknowledged tbh

i miss my nea so much rn :(

think it's that time of day where i just. lay in bed. and try not to cry.

genuinely just. annoyed rn

sad cause my girlfriend isn't giving me attention rn and like that's all i want.....

completely forgot that directv (satellite) has cheat codes that you can just, type into the search menu, do a keyword search, and hope it works.

how is webcage so fucking good omg

i wish ubiquiti made a travel router 😭

there was the amplifi teleport hardware a long time ago. but that didn’t work with unifi + it’s been dead for so long :(

keep looking at the selfie my girlfriend and i took at the airport this morning before saying goodbye and like, god she’s so fucking cute. and i also look kinda ok in the picture :3

i’m so sleepy now

miss my girlfriend already :(

won’t see her again for a week minimum. probably december 2nd at the earliest :((

sometimes i think about my ex (bad ex) and it’s just like. omfg she’s such an idiot, also how did i ever date her and also i hate her so much for what she did to me…

one time with some friends i said she should stop existing and my girlfriend said “usually id say that’s an over exaggeration but in this case it’s warranted” or something (don’t remember exactly what she said)

mmmm i love my girlfriend so much,,,, she’s so sweet and kind and cute and i just feel so safe with her tbh

new hobby is fucking up the names of java things

started calling quarkus "quack quack" and whatever armenia is "armadillo"

also the other day i accidentally said squeal-ite instead of sequel-ite

i'm so eepy

kinda want to wall mount the u7 pro in my apartment but the radiation patterns are making me feel like that'll not work out great for using my phone in bed...

i have the cutest girlfriend ever.......

still can't believe i get to be her girlfriend,,,,,,,,,,,

i'm so silly rn :3

god i love wearing my girlfriend's jacket so much, it's so fucking soft and cozy and aaaa just don't want to take it off ever.....

might cry

does anyone even care about me,,,

feeling a bit dead rn tbh